The last year or so of my life has been a crash course in dealing with change. Unfortunately, dealing with change, as it turns out, is not my spiritual gift.
Change has a tendency to stir up a lot of anxiety in me. Change tends to beg a lot of questions that usually go unanswered. Perhaps most significantly though, change tends to come around when I least expect it. I always feel a little caught off guard and unprepared. On the rare occasions when I feel as though I am ready for a change in some area of my life, it rarely plays out the way I think it should.
And the result– a paralyzing level of fear that creates insecurity, instability and imbalance. A trifecta of mental, emotional, and spiritual disruption and distraction. A perfect storm of the soul.
So in thinking of what word would make for the best focal point of this new year, I asked myself, “What is the opposite of change.”
To be steady.
Webster defines steady as “direct or sure in movement; firm in position; keeping upright; showing little variation or fluctuation; not easily upset or disturbed; constant in feeling, principle, purpose, and attachment.”
This year, I need the Lord to show me what it means, what it looks like, and how it feels to be steady.
I realize that it may in fact be the kiss of death. Kind of like praying for patience. It always backfires.
But the fear of dreading change is exhausting. It renders me no good for anyone or anything else and is completely unproductive.
What about you? What one word do you want to be the focus on this new year?